Sigh. I don't even know why I'm still doing this. Even though I don't admit it, nor have I ever told anyone (since apparently none of my friends are interested in my BS anymore), I still constantly think about you.

Not like thinking about you everyday and missing you, no, it's just that there are certain moments in my life that reminds me of you. Thinking "oh kaybe he told her to ask me that" "maybe that was directed to me?" The stupid thing is that I know that it means nothing and that you probably forgot about me right now. I wish you didn't. I fear the day you realise that you can do better without me, because then I'd be severely crushed. It's just that I've helped you through so much in the past, yet I was only your tool.

Whatever your motives are, I just want you to know that one day, I will be genuinely happy. I won't be talking to other guys hoping you'd notice and be jealous. I won't be laughing loud on purpose when I'm near you but I will laugh loudly because I will cherish those moments with my other friends.

You were my first love, and I hate to say this, but I don't think I'll ever forget about you.

But I will try my best to show you that I have moved on, that I am truly happy and whole once again, and maybe, you'd probably learn from me and do the same.

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I haven't blogged yesterday, I know but only because I spent some serious time errand-running! I came back home and was super tired so I just slept.

So I've decided to become more serious about my school work that has to be done before the vacation ends and currently, I am studying for my Chemistry chapter test that I will have the first tuesday that I get back! And after I'm done I would study for my Physics final. (Yes, final, because Physics is not one of my strong points so I am sort of scared and worried about what would happen during the final exams. And it's going to be my first exam too!) Then when I'm hopefully done with those, I would start with studying or my computer final and Biology weekly which I will both be having on the Sunday of the second week. (Yes, I start school on Sundays to Thursdays, not Mondays to Fridays.)

Well wish me luck I guess? Haha. Hopefully God would help me through this inshAllah! And I'm also planning to lose 16 pounds by the end of January teehee. So yeah, I'm going to do this without any complaints.

بسم الله.

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Hello followers!

I finally managed to work out the application for Blogspot so now it's probably easier for me to blog daily since I'm not able to always have access on a computer however I do have full access to my phone :-)

Just thought to put it out there!
Xoxo

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Hello you guys!
So it's currently December 25 so happy christmas to all of you who celebrate it! :-)

Today was a pretty okay day. I watched the finale for Season 4 of Merlin and oh my God I literally died of awesomeness. I won't spoil but let's just say I got a tiny bit dissappointed at the end. I cannot wait for season 5.
I studied two lessons of Chemistry and it's pretty easy so far. I've download seasons 1-4 of Merlin on my computer just so I could watch it again teehee.

I decided that starting January 1 2012, I'll start blogging daily. You know like a virtual diary. I think it's a pretty good idea since I haven't told any of my friends in school about this blog. So InshAllah it would be a success.

All these tweets about what people got for christmas makes me jealous because I love getting presents but I don't celebrate christmas since I am muslim though. We have a similar holiday called Eid where we get money instead of presents, and it comes twice a year.

I'm terrified about my eye sight though. Since the vacation started I've been non-stop on the computer and I fear that my grade increased. So I have to be more careful.
I've also been having this idea for a story floating in my brain for a while, except I still have to find out how to express it in words, but I've been to lazy since I've already many stories I have to continue.

(You can check out some of my work here, if you'd like: http://figment.com/users/19832-Sheikha-Al-Shahhy )

So I guess that's all.
Oh, and in case you haven't checked Merlin out yet, I suggest you do. ;-)

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Hello my non-existing followers.
I haven't updated in months but let's do some catching up.

Well I'm currently in my winter vacation now, second week, and it's been pretty good. I lost about 6.6 pounds or 3 kg and I've been excited about working out nowadays and I'm sore all over. :-)
I went over to Jana's place and we had an amazing time with my other two friends Jana and Noaf. And the other days I've just been chilling and I finished my Maths project and all was good until I remembered that I had a chemistry chapter test as soon as I get back to school on Tuesday. Which was a complete kill joy so I'm bound to freak out anytime soon.

So now I'm watching Episode 9 Season 3 of BBC Merlin. I've been addicted to this show last year but lost interest when it stopped showing on TV but I recently rejoiced with my addiction when I saw the sneak peek of The Sword In The Stone part 2.
And who could resist Bradley James anyway? <3

And oh, I've been trying to figure out how can I become more experienced in photography since I realized how I don't really use my SLR. So going to figure that out sometimes InshAllah.

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